Directing from the shadows: Women’s experiences of male relative suicide bereavement

Suicide bereavement evokes particular emotions that can hamper recovery processes, if neglected. This Interpretative Phenomenological Analysis (IPA) study explored five women’s experiences of following the death by suicide a male relative. One superordinate theme, directing from shadows, and three interrelated subordinate themes: roller coasting, speaking unspeakable, finding meaning living with were identified. highlights women bereaved may occupy complex position in family when trying to balance caring for themselves others, sometimes leading them negate their own support therapeutic needs. However, this felt supported timely, flexible sensitive professional responses found proactive outreach approach, peer groups counselling helpful at different stages process.